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pissed.. 2 meanings!
did u kno pissed means drunk in england? how did we decide it should mean mad? we're idiots.. the english have the right idea! haha but im pissed cuz carz and marti are having a party and they dint even invite me! its a girls nite thingy so wut does that make me.. i dint grow balls over the summer dammit! bitches! owells i wouldnt go anyway but its hurtful to kno they dint even INVITE me! ugh! so i tlked to case when i called starr to tel her i wasnt selling my cheer uniform (yes i cheered.. u kno how pitiful i am.. just add this to the list) we tlked 4 a long time about all sorts of stuff and about rotc and jrotc and air force and stuff.. he wants to be in the military he just doesnt kno wut branch yet. but w/e. the evil giggle bitches are annoying as hell!!!!!!! hey looky i have a hand.. lets giggle about it! my word! we had a njhs meeting today. im gonna run for president woohoo! my shoulder hurts like hell cuz i just did my work out thingy for it w/ a thera-band! harder than shit! but neways we have tryouts for he vball power teama nd that sux cuz i hardly can get my serve over! ahhhh! im off to practice.. LUVZ!:) 0:) ;)
you called me wut?!?!
today was a pretty typical sunday w/ the exception of packing sara's car cuz she is leaving tomorrow for pharmacy school orientation in auburn. we went to church and i saw michael as we were walking out and i waved.. he gave me the cutest most flirtatious look i've seen since the last time i was w./ him, but that is to be expected. i, of course, returned the look and we went our separate ways only to see each other again, still from a distance.. the flirtatious looks continue.. mom and sara are still oblivious to this moment. we went out to lunch at bellacino's after dropping some library books off and then came home. i went to mow the lawn only to discover the lawn mower needed oil and we had none so mom went to the store and sara and i packed her car. you cant see the back window cuz of all the shit. no1 can even sit in the passenger seat. so i mowed the lawn and admired all the butterflies on our butterfly bush as i did so. after i showered i put on jeans and a black tank top, w/ my hair in a quick french twist. i decided to put on the shoes i wore to church which were black and clunky w/ laces. so when i walk into dad's he looks at me and sez.. u went w/ the punk look today i see. i coulda killed him! i dont like that idea.. i wasnt even wearing make up and he still sed it.. just cuz black denim and purple (belt and hair clip) are the only colors im wearing doesnt mean i've gone punk (and def. not punt!! ha) i guess he thought the shoes were combat boots or something but w/e i got over it and now im home. yay! i did homework (ugh) and then here i am writing my day to whoever the hell is reading this.. y not. wells i'll stop now and go read some fanfic! pitiful i kno, but byebye
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why i am tired i have no idea. i went to bed at 11 last nite and got up around 10. but im tired as hell.. riiight. i havent even doen anything but go to target and tlk and eat today.. so exerting ha! jenni and i had a blast at her house last nite. it seems like it should only be 3 or so but its 5:40.. doing nothing makes the day go by sometimes.. others it makes it drag! my shoulder is falling off i swear.. i have subluxation (english- i partially dislocated it b4 and it hurts like friggin hell constantly!) but anyways the other day at volleyball practice i think i did it again in the middle of a serve so i was gonna tlk to muh dr. about it when i go 4 my sports physical, but as soon as i get home mom sez i have to reschedule my appt. cuz she has to work wed. and it might not be this week.. i burst into tears ... thats how bad it hurts.. i wanna tlk to her even tho she'll say go see the specialist and he'll tell me to do my exercises but i dont have time 4 that and i dont remember half the time.. my shoulder wil have fallen off prolly if i have to wait til nxt week but hell .. its only a shoulder.. why would i have 2 if i couldnt live w/out one. well i have ranted long enough for this entry! luv yas!
if u giggle.. i swear!
I 4got to come baq to finish my bad day cuz i was enjoying my last day of freedom b4 school started. well now its the second day and i hate it! .. my suspicions were right! i am in a class with a bunch of giggly "popular" girls. If popularity were based on smarts instead of blond trendiness, they would be losers. The teachers are ready to separate them! yay~!!! i have hardly sed anything and the look n my face is just daring someone to speak to me. i am making a silent statement. i cant put it into words tho. IM NOT IN JENNY'S CLASS :_( it sux ass! shaughnessy.. my ex has been quite a character to say the least. once im home music is the only thing getting me thru these 1st 2 days so far .. that and phone conversations w/ jenni. At school i scribble on paper.. my notebook will be filled w/ that and poetry by end of semester 4 sure! i need to go take a bubble bath and calm myself.. some yoga after that will allow me to center myself and gain my composure for a good night's sleep which i havent had in several nites.. maybe i'll have a better day tomorrow.. I KNO I WILL~ I GET TO GO TO JENNY'S!!!!!! yay! nitey nite!
Hell or life?
Today has been the worst day! First i had to get up at 6:45 in the friggin morning so i could go do a service project at 8. Then i get there and i see someone i really don't want to and i don't get to go baq home, away from them, until 1 in the afternoon! Then when i finally come baq home i go to target and buy school supplies.. i run into some friends and we tlk.. The highlight of my day. I have to come home and mow the lawn after that! I hate this stupid chore but i have no way out.. its an easy but annoying $20 tho. When i come in to take a break between the front and backyards the neighbor kids are here cuz my sis had to go pick them up from school/day care. Well, they were tired and cranky to say the least! i swear the boy has a streak of mean selfishness that is so unbearable. I got news for him: get over your damn little self and shut up! he never gives his little sister a break either and she is a sweet lil angel! {at least today 0:)} so after i listen to them misbehave and argue for a bit then i go willingly to finish the lawn. So then i came baq in and took a shower while listening to the kids argue some more. well, nmy mall trip got postponed thanx to dinner and my sis having to shower and w/e. so i went to get my make up done since school is starting baq and i needed foundation and stuff. Walking up to the clinique counter there is a lady not too young and another older so i go near the younger one. her idea of putting makeup on me was foundation w/ a qtip and sponge. then asking .. o did u want eyeshadow and lipstick.. well duh! but she then applies those very carelessly w/ qtips and cotton balls (ahhh!) im VERY underwhelmed and its that time of month so i am on the verge of tears all day.. this minor crisis almost breaks me.. but i hold it together cuz i have a plan! i go to victoria's secret where the chicks are like my age.. they ask, as usual, if i want a makeover as soon as i set foot in the door. I fill out the questionaire and she sets to work after ringing up a customer. she knows that i like drama and does pretty makeup.. it almost matches my style but not quite.. i stay silent the whole time and my look matches my behavior wut with my nails (blaq and white) and my outfit (blaq and denim) tehn as i leave i look at the happy girl getting her make up done in front of me and i mouth the words 'good girl' cuz she seems to be enjoying herself fully w/ her giggle fits every 2 seconds!!!! ahh!.. NI! .. i'll finish my bad day in the morning cuz its bubble bath time.. if i rant all in one sitting i'll start cursing profusely.. i am trying to stop,wait no just get better b4 school starts! (way too soon!) lata... ME!
evening of a day wasted
Well, I have spent all day reading fanfic. Man I have an obsession. I suppose when school starts in another 6 days that will change. This year is going to suck ass .. i dunno why i just have a feeling that it will. Especially in early september when neptune and saturn are repelling each other. NI! That can only mean bad shit cuz my sign is capricorn which corresponds w/ saturn and my best friend jenny's an aquarius - neptune.. thats not the main threat of that particular occurence, but it doesn't sit well with me. then i tlked to byron who i haven't tlked to in 3 weeks .. dunno if thats bad or good, but i have a feeling he lied quite a few times. not good 4 his rep, but not my problem cuz i kno when to believe him or not. I get to spend the nite with jenni on saturday.. HAPPY DAY! but she doesnt get to come work the st. vincent de paul thingy w/ me so i have to do service hours in a boring silence. I swear if chelsea comes and i have to listen to one more grimy detail of juvenile court and the d-home i am gonna go crazy and blow up at her w/ sum joke about how drugged sluts always end up in jail first or sumthin. And then Jose called me today to ask 4 ashley's phone number.. I'm tellin' ya, the two were made 4 each other and if thas not wut he was calling her about then he shoulda been. like the deaf kid in musical chairs IMOUT!.. gonna go eat ice cream!!!!! :)
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